Endothermic Life

Hi I'm Kelvin

Exothermic:
In chemistry exothermic is defined as a chemical reaction that produces heat. Heat is in its most basic form is movement. Specifically the motion of atoms. In contrast, endothermic is a chemical reaction that absorbed heat. We think of putting things in the fridge to add cold but really cold is simply removed heat. Kelvin (this dude here) came up with absolute zero. Which is the point that an atoms is no longer in motion.

So one thing you should already know about me at this point is that I am a geek. I don't watch big bang theory, I live it. I often surround myself with bigger geeks and dorks (aka some of my extended family) to give myself an ill-gotten sense that I am really cool. But deep down I know the truth, I am a big geeky geek who has just enough self awareness to try to hid it most of the time.

The reason I named my blog "Endothermic Life" (besides being a giant chemistry dork) is simple. Life keeps moving. It produces heat, sometimes more than we would like and sometimes less. We don't get to choose all the events and people that we are mixed with in this life. We do get to decide how we will react. Every min of every day we are deciding and reacting.  Sometimes situations and people are so endothermic they literally suck the heat or movement from us. I have been there. The only way to overcome it is to become Exothermic. To keep moving. This is what I want from my life. Beautiful movement by living in a balanced way that produces constant warmth for those I love around me.

As for what this blog is about... Well it's pretty much going to be whatever I crap I want it to be.  After all, it's mine. I am not setting any perimeters. I am not going to pretend I don't swear or that my house and kids and I are living on some alternate plane where it never rains tears and that life is always presentably peachy. Were every craft turns out as though it was produced by Martha herself and that you should feel both in-adequate and in-awe of my domestic prowess. This is not at all my goal. 

I am writing this as though it is being read but to be totally honest my blog is really not for anyone. Please don't take this the wrong way but as a cancer survivor I don't spend nearly as much time as I used to worried about how I may being coming across to people. This blog is for me and my sanity. To organize my thoughts and feelings. The reason I am making it public an sharing it online is less selfishly motivated. I recently graduated from a cancer transitions group. It was there that I realized how universal our feelings and experiences really are. While we are unique there is so much magic in others vocalizing to a tee how you feel. It's as though it is an exothermic reaction. You become warmer and life seems more doable.